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May 25, 2008

Just confused on who to trust

Filed under: relationships, work — Tags: , — marley howards @ 8:41 am

Have just been promoted at work two weeks ago. We are 7 on the team and we have a goal for every two weeks.  I thought my team was a very competent one as they went through a gruesome scrutinizing of the personnel people and intensive training for the job.  But, within 2 weeks of work, almost half got sick, and the remaining people performed at a mediocre level.

At the end, I have to augment for all their backlogs and as proof, I am working on a weekend, all alone here in the office, even the janitors were all on their rest days.  I know the first time is always hard, but the work load was reasonably light,  we were all on flexi-time and they have been trained.  Makes me wonder if this will be the situation for all time.  I can’t do things alone, but by the looks of it,  I have to do things by myself. Don’t know who to trust for fear that they might just fail me.


April 15, 2008

On the verge of a panic attack

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , — marley howards @ 4:37 am

Have seen this clip from the Today Show the symptoms of a person having a panic attack.  Shortness of breathe, nausea, tingling of hand fingers, blackouts.  And when I thought of my previous days, those were the very things I had experienced.  Thought it was just the weather, but then, I still don’t know if I have the official panic attack.

Also, they said that panic attacks are easily treated by prozac or any anti-depressants or by going to a therapist.  Well, I’m not a big fan of therapy sessions and I don’t really want to admit that I have a disorder.  But with all the work and the pressure, I think I am on the verge of having one.  Everytime I get out of the house and see the building where my office is located, I feel my heart building up and about to explode in my chest.

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